The Keepers Athenaeum

There is no one in here and no one out there,
no one to see no one to bleed,
no one to love no one to lust,
and yet i go on into the dust

a party to young to cosume and rot my breath, like all mothers friends
some of the most fun i had were nights full of drunk adults, high on life and everything else
hide and go seek till it was too dark to see
stuck in the top of a pine tree, whos that at the bottom? you [...]

bury me in a glass box
in a field of shattered glass
let the mourners gather in mass
let them look in disgust from above
let them point and laugh…
when theyve just about had their fill
their stomachs cramping
faces swollen from laughter
the tears stinging their skin,
ill flip the switch
and watch them fall…

god is an unattainable entity on earth,
but still, we fill our pipes and break our skin
to build that never ending staircase higher and higher, with every step
bringing us closer to god, with every hit
destroying who we are.
a never ending stair case
built to reach the heavens
comes crashing down, oh so close
time and time again…
hell is at [...]

these stupid reasons why
whatever they may be
to believe in what you want to
and to kill what pleases you.
dont look to me for hope
or answers
dont look to me for anything but
a corpse to dance with
side by side well dance
one last dance.
i can only give you my life
ill trade mine for yours
without thought
without hesitation
the barrier between us [...]

everything we have
we hold at arms length
and cast aside
for later use.
we turn our eyes
towards everything else
and our backs
on the ones we love
the ones who will always be there for us.
forever…

it seems that all throughout the day my heart is at my feet
the sun rises bringing with it a new dawn full of discovery…
for most a bright new day would lighten the load and lift the burden of a heavy heart, but not me,
my heart sinks with the rising of the sun.
only when the sun [...]

what ever happened
to those cold winter nights
right after the fall
when the air smelled different
and we laughed at it all
consumed by ourselves
whatever happened
to those broken white clouds
frantically running from the storm
they seemed so afraid then
you watched them with fear in your heart
praying silently you could be them
whatever happened
to me obsessing over you
please turn around to me
let [...]

For yellowdoorz
i see the frailty my future holds
i see the dust gathering on my shelves
holding the books
holding the pages
the story of my life gathering dust.
i see the frailty my future holds
i see it in the generation before mine
before theirs
before theirs
corpses rotting before death.
i see the frailty my future holds
i see myself looking back at my [...]

now what you see and
touch and
feel
its all an illusion
none of its real
life gone by watched
through a steel gate longing
to run with the wolves or
just once chase down and
eat anything that
moves
eventually gone mad crushed under the fact
that the gate only opens for
everyone else and when it opens for you
you become stretched thin on your tight leather [...]

this hollow feeling
this feeling of hopelessness
i balance suicide on a razor.
these feelings will be with me forever.
testament to the fact
that the world is weak
and i am strong.
testament that i am alive.
nobody knows this pain,
and if they did
they would buckle under the pressure
that i hold on a daily basis
that suffocates me in the darkness.
if you knew [...]

material posession doesnt matter.
image doesnt matter.
ill learn to forget both
hate matters.
love matters.
both have grown strong
within me
anger matters.
ill let it flourish inside.
ill erupt like a volcano
taking with me the world outside
ill learn to love
to hate.
ill feed off of misery
ill cry tears of joy
and laugh uncontrolably in my infinite sadness.
and the masses will run the rat race
and [...]

Religion is mans attempt to promote the belief of continuity after death and to fill the void and uncertainty left by the thought that maybe death is the end and life has no purpose. Religion justifies faith and death as a passage to immortality but only upon submission to the will of god and the [...]

this day at the cinema, unchecked by the ravages of time
a halloween candy bag full of delightfull images that are impossible to digest
that jam-pack to the point of explosion
a beautifull kaleidoscope of blistering light and glistening insides
this day at the cinema or days as it seems
years it might be, a lifetime im sure
cool and comfortable [...]

imagine a world gone mad
a world full of violence and chaos
hands around our brothers throats
our sisters screams die with the wind
atomic fist fights
plugged away aimlessly in the dark
with the press of a button
to illuminate with thermo search lights
searching for anything and everything in its path
an endless volley of
a blind tennis match with every stroke
comes dire [...]