The Keepers Athenaeum

inspiration drained through thoughts that dont exist
waking from a self induced burial
with eyes forcefully unglued, with eyes that wont stay closed, with eyes exhausting to dust.
inspiration floods with the draining of the soul
emotions flood with the waking day, with reality served on a hot plate
eat it or die. it burns the mouth and churns the [...]

your rules were meant to be broken and you know what?
they will
i been bruised and broken
but nothing can keep me down
fate keeps me up on top
and sometimes underneath
but when i wake up in the hospital
recovery is a small price to pay…
flying from up here
it all seems so small
everything seems so small.
ive learned what ive learned
and [...]

the fire in my brain burns so cold
the ice i get from glances unmet
puts a fire under my feet
and a rocket in my pocket
hang ten and hang loose
ill meet you on the bottom

go hide in your shadows
hide your head in shame
close your eyes and pray
it all goes away.
hide under your umbrella
full of holes…
your mind floods with the rain.
your tears flood the floor.
your blood stains the razor.
your ruptured veins scream for help.
give me your pale hand
ill walk you through
the shadows.
ill keep you safe from yourself,
from them
from the monster [...]

i feel your pain
i can see it in your eyes.
you tell me to forget you
i wont. i cant
hang on a little longer
keep reaching for me
everything will be alright
i dont exist without you
if you fall
im falling with you.
hold on a little while longer.
ill help you
chase the shadows away.
ill help you
open your eyes.
ill help you
wash your wounds.
dont [...]

here,
desease festers and spreads,
a cesspoll of vomit ive fallen into
vomit and infection.
down here i find its cause,
poor decaying souls,
rotting unchecked…
unchecked by themselves
or anyone else.
do they even care? does anyone care?
do they care about themselves and the plague theyve caused?
who knows…
all i know is that im in it now,
with them,
decaying…
trying to claw my way out before [...]

no mater how much i yell
my fists slamming down upon
the traffic that will still be here, i stop
i think to myself, were not going anywhere.
i put my mind in a better place
thoughts that bring a smile to my face
and forget it all.
ill tip a brew
for the ones we knew
and keep on truckin.
squinting at the shining [...]

throw a wrench in this mess
slow it down.
erase the stains of time
burn it down.
back it up a bit
kill the ones you hate
hold the ones you love
fuck everything in between.
know what i mean?
maybe so
maybe not
maybe its too late for you
too late for me…
cut out the piece of my mind
that shows me my memories.
cut out my eyes
to [...]

i want to end this boredom
i want to stop my spine from crawling
i want to rip it out
and smash it up
fuck the world
that means fuck you too
i want to fly to the moon
please dont get in my way
if you do, watch what happens
please pick me up off the floor
ill run until my heart explodes
or till [...]

the drop of your flesh
beneath my blade
the crack of bone
beneath your skin
these are a few of my favorite things.
the tears you cry
pleading for life
your wasted breath
asking me why
these are a few of my favorite things.
my mangled knuckles
in your broken face
your screams choked
by your fragile little teeth
these are a few of my favorite things.
souless eyes
rubbed raw [...]

normal is as normal does
the abnormally normal
march in step
trip and skip
eyes burning holes
in the back of their progessors empty heads
digressing all the while
half stepping
in a circle for all they know
till death comes ripping….
they will be replaced

i want to feel the inside of you
cut you open
rip right through
ill feast on your heart
and make you mine.
quench my lust
black blood divine
every piece of your misery
ill savor
till it kills me.
ill bury you
inside me

as i stand on these cliffs
gazing into the abyss,
barely able to make out
the comfortable mess below,
i try to re-trace my steps.
i think to myself
why?
as i look to the horizon
trying to find
a ray of hope,
i find only violence,
the sky churning in its beautifull blackness…
behind it
trapped
the calm warm day
fighting to break free.
the abyss beckons
it calls for me
“you [...]

slippery skin
sin to win
follow the honey trail
let the games begin.
debauchery at its finest
not a sin left unturn
sodom an gohmora
were all gonna burn.
swollen insides
eyes wide shut
the pig sty is open
rampid with smut.
share my disease
and ill share yours
let me bathe in your canker
enveloped in your sores.
let the ground crack open
and swallow us whole
let me die in your [...]

die.
die slowly,
painfully.
die screaming,
screaming his name.
die reaching for help,
reaching for him.
die with hope in your eyes,
and fear in your heart.
die calling for help,
crying for someone in vain,
and reaching for the nothing you know youll find…
alone and afraid, begging to be saved.
helpless
abandoned
wondering why….
let your stomach burn with guilt,
die with his name on your tounge
or dont.
i dont care,
as [...]